Not much progress

Another month has passed and I haven't lost or gained anything. Although I have made a few gains with my lifting. Hit 1 or 2 PR's which is good. I don't think it's because I'm gaining more muscle. I think it's due to getting better at the technique.

I ate WAY too much on Thanksgiving. I felt so sick the next day. I didn't even drink that much, but I felt so sick. It didn't help that I was on my period. Bloating and cramping on top of eating like shit. Not a good combination. I ate clean yesterday and have done the same today (so far). My days always start this way. I have a great breakfast and usually good snacks and a good lunch. Its the afternoon and evening where I fall apart. I think one cookie is ok, or a fancy coffee will be fine. But that's where I need to cut back. Which brings me to my next thing I want to re-evaluate.

Coffee.....

I love the taste of it and it provides and nice break in the day. However, I've noticed it doesn't make me feel great. In fact, it gives me a headache! Maybe I could switch to decaf? I like the routine of it in the morning with Clark though..... I know it's more of a mental thing with me. I don't like the headaches. So which is greater? The routine with Clark and suffering a headache? Or cutting it out and feeling better? Maybe I'll try the next week without coffee. See how I feel. I used to only drink coffee occasionally. Now it's become a habit, but my body and head don't like it.

This is all a mental game now. I know I can eat healthy, but I don't have the self control to stop eating the unhealthy stuff. I need to break some of these habits before I end up looking like my mom. That's the ultimate worst thing in my mind!!! And I HATE this tummy I've developed. My pants aren't fitting. I feel gross when I bend over. It's gotta go!!